I love spring.
I mean, in Florida there isn’t much of a transition since we go straight from winter to summer with maybe three nice days in between, but I still take what I can get. The seasons are so amazing if you stop to think about it, how they consistently keep moving, cycling, circling back around naturally as we stand in wonder. That’s the beauty of intelligent design – as if we didn’t already see that everywhere we look. I love the seasons – well, except maybe summer. I really have no use for it, but I guess it has it’s purpose – probably something similar to spiders and hiccups. I just know I’ll have a lot of questions when I get to Heaven!
But the metaphors here are pretty huge. Take fall, for example (which I consider my favorite). Everything’s dying. Literally, plants just stop blooming, nature hits the off switch, and all the thriving that happened all year just shuts down. But in the midst of that is some of the greatest natural beauty in the world. The most vibrant colors and memorable sights happen as old things die. It’s incredible.
We don’t look at the reality when we see the beauty, we just gush and take a picture. But the reality is that death is what introduces it – a shedding of everything that was once used to identify the tree, plant, or whatever is dying. It’s stripped of it’s identity and left bare for the world to see.
It’s beautiful and ugly all at once.
Then winter comes.
Winter’s kind of the hopeless season when it comes to nature. Not only has everything beautiful been taken away, but it’s been left there with no view of any change in the future. And not only that, but things like snow, hail, sleet, and storms all cover up any resemblance of what it once was. It’s cold, it’s dreary, and it’s darker than any of the other seasons. It stretches out for months on end with no hint of change or glimpse of improvement.
Now, we know that eventually spring will come, because we’ve seen it. Winter might stretch on longer than we think we can take (which is probably how y’all northern readers feel right now!) But in reality, spring has never not come. So we have faith in it, that we’re going to see the end of the dark, dreary, hopeless season.
Which kind of makes sense.
We’ve all had our winters. Some of us have had a lot of them, and some of us have much longer winters than we think we can handle. And I’m willing to bet every single one of you can think of at least one “winter” that you’ve experienced. You might be going through it right now. That time when everything good seems to have shriveled up and fallen, only to be covered up by the snowdrifts that trap you in the hopelessness of this season. I’ve had plenty of those winters, where the darkness had a field day and the bitter cold of this world made it feel like it was always going to be like that. When the sun’s behind a cloud so long you wonder if it’s even there anymore.
I get it, more than I could probably get across in words.
But it’s a season.
Season. That’s a word I always took for granted, breezed over without any thought. I knew Ecclesiastes 3, and the whole “A time for this, a time for that” chapter, and that the phrase “season” was kind of copyrighted by church people. But it never really clicked for me until the past year, and a whole lot started to make sense around that time.
Because they really are just seasons. Our problem as nearsighted humans is that we focus on what’s going on now. We get a laser focus on the problems, the pain, the hopelessness, the immediate, that we sit down and stay there, convinced that there’s nothing else in the world. We don’t stop to look back and realize that winter has been here before, and it gets replaced by Spring. We don’t look forward in the hope of that season that will come when the snow melts. No, we just sit in the snow and wish it wasn’t there.
But maybe it needs to be there.
This is my first blog post since the day before my car accident two months ago. At the time of the wreck, I was going through a lot already. I felt like my life was going nowhere, that despite everything I was doing every day, nothing was ever going to change. And it most certainly wouldn’t change for the better! I couldn’t see a way that God was going to change this dreary season, and because I’m nearsighted, I had a hard time trusting that He wasn’t.
Then the accident happened, and left me in a daze for a month afterwards. That was one of the hardest times of my life, where I not only didn’t see how God was going to bring good out of it, but I didn’t see how anything was going to be brought out of it at all. I wasn’t just stuck in a sense of not having life direction – I was physically stuck. Snowed in during one of the hardest winters of my life.
But it’s just a season.
We’re definitely nearsighted, but that doesn’t mean we have to be. One of my favorite verses (that also happens to be the theme of my novel) is Hebrews 11: 1,
“Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”
We can’t see flowers when it’s snowing, but we can believe that they’re going to sprout up. We can’t feel the warmth of the sun when the clouds have covered it up – but we know it’s still there. We can’t hear the birds singing, but we can trust that we will, even during the hardest storms of the season.
Because we can believe it’s a season.
Because spring comes.
And what does spring do when it comes? It does it subtly. You keep moving, living, (however challenging it is), and you start to notice the snow is melting. And you keep moving, then all of a sudden one day you hear a bird singing. And you still keep living, until one day you notice little flowers starting to bloom where the ground was nothing but ice before.
And all of a sudden, winter is a memory. And it’s replaced by the warmth and joy and life of spring, and we watch new life blooming where death was before. And the biggest thing is, if all those dead leaves had stayed on the trees, there’d be no room for the new ones now. If all of the old hadn’t fallen, the new couldn’t grow. If we didn’t go through that winter, then we couldn’t blossom once our spring season finally came.
And that’s why we need winter.
We’re nearsighted for a reason. If God gave us His glasses and showed us every last thing that He was doing in our lives, we wouldn’t need Him. But that’s what faith is for. So that when we can’t see more than two feet in front of us, and even when all we can see is hopelessness from our perspective, we can see Him and let that be enough. We can know He’s there and rest in that alone. And we can sit back and watch the snow rush around us, and smile in anticipation of spring.
Because spring always comes.
I had no idea how God was going to use everything that had happened to me for good. All the winters, all the sadness and pain and fear and confusion and hopelessness. That’s all I could see. The hardest thing for me was – and honestly, sometimes still is – to trust God when I can’t see. To know that He’s still there, that the sun is still shining behind the clouds, and that He’ll bring spring in His timing. But He taught me a lot through my winter, and one day I woke up to find it was finally spring. That beautiful season that brought a whole new life with it – a life more beautiful than I ever could have dreamed.
He is faithful. And no matter how bad it’s storming outside, He never leaves us in any of our seasons. And if we have faith, we’ll see His hand in every season of our lives, good or bad. Because He uses it all for the good of those who love Him.
To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under Heaven.”
~ Ecclesiastes 3:1